After six weeks of unwinding my business and four weeks of packing up used to be my office, I stand upon the precipice of a big “what’s next?” The packing and the unwind were a good distraction from taking any action. You see, I don’t really know what I want to do next. I am someone who has rushed at life for most of my life, so this whole idea of allowing life to unfold and reveal is a bit outside my comfort zone. In spite of my “seize the day,” or in some cases “strangle the day” attitudes, life is unfolding, coming to me, and illuminating a path toward Chapter 3.
I stood at the kitchen window this morning, cradling my cup of hot tea in cold, grateful hands. Thick frost coated the lawn and a group of children bundled up like little Michelin men trudged to the bus stop, accompanied by parents and dogs. I never tire of this morning parade of vibrancy and promise. I headed upstairs to my “office” and realized that life has settled down enough for me to do what I love best in the mornings: read and write. Not exactly your “extreme sports,” but exciting nonetheless.
A day ago I committed to participate in NaNoWriMo–something I learned about from one of the blogs that I read. NaNoWriMo happens every November for 30 days. It stands for National Novel Writing Month. It’s a challenge whose rule are to simply write 50,000 words in the month of December. The prize is that you finish that task. It’s big and it’s bold and I am excited to participate. I will post some excerpts on my blog as I go along. The goal is to learn more about being a person, more about being a writer and more about just how much you can do if you push yourself. Right up the alley of an individual who does not do well with ambiguity. This writing challenge unfolded and presented itself at a time when I was thinking I wanted/needed the magic of a deadline. If you want to learn more, you can visit http://nanowrimo.org
If you read my blog, I hope you will cheer me on to finish. It means risking writing bad stuff, because 1,600 plus words a day is daunting, but I want to be in it for the long haul and I appreciate the support.